Hey out there, I've finally gotten all moved into my first little house. I just wanna give a shout out to Lunawry and Celeste. Look guys i'm sorry i bailed on your weekend you were going to Ohio. I was planning on doing that for you but Evan came down with the flu the night before you were leaving. He was running a really high temp, throwing up, the whole works. I guess i could still have sitted for Amanda but I didn't wanna risk taking something over to her house and Cage getting sick. Isaac and I ended up getting it too. I had to take 3 days off of work, but i think Evan had it the worst out of all of us. I'm really really sorry and you guys have every right to be completely pissed at me, I don't blame you. But please remember I have always been there for you guys as a shoulder to cry on. I'm really starting to miss having you guys around. Now that we live so close to each other I would love to hang out with you guys more often. If you guys don't want to associate with me anymore I understand, just remember I love you both and would give anything to have your friendship back.
Hey all! we made it back, it was a long ass drive but we made it. Evan took the trip really well, he got a little fussy about half way out but i think it was because he just wanted to be out of the car. We're temporarily staying at my mom's house till we get a place of our own. Mom is loving it, she loves spending time with Evan everyday. I've been having a rough time dealing with the fact that my uncle is gone. I didn't think it would be this hard. Isaac and I are planning a wedding next year so be on the look out for updates.
Wednesday night around 7:30pm a little bundle of joy was brought into the world. Evan Thomas Montgomery was born at 7:27pm, he was 6lbs 5oz and 19in long. It was definatly an experience I will never forget. After being in labor for close to 12 hours and not showing any signs of progress my doctor decided to have me go in for a c section. I was scared, really scared, but Isaac was there with me the whole time comforting me and holding my hand. Laying on the table completely numb from the chest down, I had no idea what was happening. Then it seemed like it was out of no where, I heard a little noise and seconds later I was listening to my son cry and looking at him in his father's arms. It was so surreal, I couldn't believe that in a matter of minutes I had become a mother. The minute I held him I fell in love, his sweet little face was there in front of me, I started crying. Now things still haven't changed, I wouldn't have changed a thing, I love being a mother. Yeah i've been tired and a little grouchy but it all goes away when I hold Evan. I have my own family now and I can't believe it, I love every minute of it. Isaac and Evan are the best things that have ever happened to me, I can't wait for everyone back in Indiana to meet my son. 1 week and 3 months to go!
Lately I've been joking around with Isaac about when we were going to set a date, normally he just gives me a funny look and changes the subject. Now it's getting to the point where I don't know what he wants to do. Why has he put his divorce off for so long? If he really loves me the way he says he does, wouldn't that make him want to get it done all the more, especially now with the baby on the way? I feel like he doesn't want to move on because theres something about Heather that he doesn't want to give up. Am I just going to stay his "girl-friend" until he decides he's ready? When our child is like 5 years old and comes to me and asks me why mommy and daddy aren't married what do I say? Everytime I try bringing this up with Isaac or ask him some of these questions he changes the subject or says "I'll get it taken care of don't worry" and then the whole thing gets put off even longer. Is it just my hormones that are making me feel this way or is there something I should really be concerned about? I'm afraid to talk to him about this again because he might take it as me nagging or being too pushy. I mean am I wrong to feel like this? So many questions and the only real person that has the answers is Isaac, but how do I ask him without him either getting offended or not take me seriously. The last time this came up I almost broke up with him over it, it's not fair to me to sit here and wait and hope and dream about the day we get married when they might get shattered because he's still holding on to his ex. Is that what I have to be pushed to do to get him to realize how important this is? I don't want to have to do that, I love him so much and I don't want to loose him but what else am I supposed to do. How much longer am I going to have to put my life, future with him, on hold? I've been patient and understanding about this for over a year and frankly i'm starting to get tired of waiting for him to get this done. Sorry I'm not trying to dump my problems onto everyone but is there some kind of advice anyone can give me. This has been on my mind for a while and I want to talk about it with him but at the same time I don't want to push him away. He's the father of my child and I'm just as crazy about him now as I was when we first got together. I can't picture how my life would be without him, I love him so much but this thing is hurting me. Any advice you can give please email me back, again sorry for dumping my problems on you, I guess I just needed to talk to someone about this before bringing it up with Isaac.
OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so fed up with Kansas bullshit it's unreal. We finally got the internet turned on at home, but 3 hours after the cable guys leave the modem decided to stop working right when I was in the middle of taking a quiz. Completely stressed and frustrated I said fuck it and smoked a cigarette, luckily Isaac came home and within minutes had the modem back up and running. Don't know how or what he did but the man must have magic in his fingers or something. Then we get our electric bill in the mail and I still don't know how the hell this little one bedroom apartment can draw over $200 worth of electricity. SO now we owe almost $500 since we haven't been able to afford the whole bill we're stuck making payments. All this plus our rent, cable, internet, phone cards, different tires for the car (which need major attention) and we are still in desperate need of a car seat. The one major thing we need for our baby and we can't afford it. Things just keep piling up higher and higher with no releif in sight, it seems like the only thing good coming out of us being in Kansas is the friends we've made here and our child. Other than that I will have no problem telling my landlord to kiss my royal ass and leave Kansas behind in the dust. When we first came out here it was supposed to be an opportunity for us to grow a little and start our own life together. It seems that ever since coming out here things have went from bad to worse. I just need to keep reminding myself that it's only going to be a few more months and we'll be back where we belong. With our own little family now it's going to be just as hard if not worse being on our own and supporting a child at the same time. But at least when we come back to Indiana we'll have people around that are going to be willing to help us out with either babysitting or other things. I already know my mom wants to babysit every chance she can get and I know between Isaac's friends and mine we will have all the help and support we need to help get ourselves back on our feet. To this day I still wish we hadn't have left but if we didn't we wouldn't be bringing a new life into this world and wouldn't have had the chance to look reality dead in the eye and face it on our own. I guess coming out here has been a major learning experience for both of us. If I can get over all of this stress (not just for myself but for my baby too) and look at the bright side I can get through these last few grulling months and be back home where I belong.
Hello out there. My name is Elizabeth and I'm pregnant with my first child. I was hoping by joining this community that i'll make some new friends that i can keep in touch with and ask questions about the arrival of my son. I can't wait to hear from some of you. Happy Holidays!
When i first started postin to this website the whole purpose was to keep in touch with friends on my list. Especially now more than ever since I live all the way out here. Anymore though it seems completely pointless to keep this thing since none of my friends look at it or even acknowledge the fact that its here. So basically I'm just posting into thin air, now I need a friend more than ever. Entering my third trimester not knowing whats going to happen or when. Asking my friends questions for advice and not getting the advice i seek since no one gives a damn about me anymore. But the minute i come back to Indiana amazingly everyone is excited to see me and spend time with me. But why can't they email or read these stupid journal entries. Sometimes having someone asking how you life is going and how your first pregnancy is going is somewhat important. So I don't think i'll be posting to this anymore since its really pointless to keep it anyway.
Things here in Kansas are the same as usual. Dull, boring, and uneventful. Sounds like my friends in Indiana are doing well, not sure if anyone noticed but Isaac and I will be moving back to Indiana next summer. Looking forward to seeing you all again, and looking forward to everyone meeting my son. Patti best of luck to you in Japan, just don't forget about the little people back in the States that love you and are going to miss you. Call me, write to me, email me, i don't care just keep in touch. Michelle I'm glad to see things are working out for you, you seem to be happier than before and your job is going well. Soon i will be back in Indiana so I can come over and make you milk shakes and french toast. Maybe Joey might like playing with Evan. Tell Amanda I said hi and wish her well for me. Not sure of what else to post on so i'm gonna go grab a peanut butter and banana sandwich, a pickle, and some chocolate milk.
Just wanted to let all of my friends know back in Indiana that Isaac and I have decided to move back to Indiana next summer instead of just coming back for a visit. We are in the proccess of preparring for the move, and you will all get a chance to see our new baby when we come back and get settled.
Yesterday Isaac and I went for another annual check up. The doctor says that everything is looking fine and the baby seems to be healthy. Today we went in for another sonogram and walked out a little surprised. Not only has the child doubled in size but there was a point on the screen where the baby looked like he was waving at us. The baby was so animated it was like watching a cartoon. Oh and by the way you all heard me right, i said "he" meaning we're having a boy. We've picked out the name Evan Thomas which means "strong warrior" in the Celtic origin. I'm so anxiouse to meet my child for the first time I'm not the least bit worried about the labor or other aches and pains that go with being pregnant. I can't wait for my family and friends to meet our child too.