|When will this hell end!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
||[Jan. 27th, 2007|02:04 pm]
OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so fed up with Kansas bullshit it's unreal. We finally got the internet turned on at home, but 3 hours after the cable guys leave the modem decided to stop working right when I was in the middle of taking a quiz. Completely stressed and frustrated I said fuck it and smoked a cigarette, luckily Isaac came home and within minutes had the modem back up and running. Don't know how or what he did but the man must have magic in his fingers or something. Then we get our electric bill in the mail and I still don't know how the hell this little one bedroom apartment can draw over $200 worth of electricity. SO now we owe almost $500 since we haven't been able to afford the whole bill we're stuck making payments. All this plus our rent, cable, internet, phone cards, different tires for the car (which need major attention) and we are still in desperate need of a car seat. The one major thing we need for our baby and we can't afford it. Things just keep piling up higher and higher with no releif in sight, it seems like the only thing good coming out of us being in Kansas is the friends we've made here and our child. Other than that I will have no problem telling my landlord to kiss my royal ass and leave Kansas behind in the dust. When we first came out here it was supposed to be an opportunity for us to grow a little and start our own life together. It seems that ever since coming out here things have went from bad to worse. I just need to keep reminding myself that it's only going to be a few more months and we'll be back where we belong. With our own little family now it's going to be just as hard if not worse being on our own and supporting a child at the same time. But at least when we come back to Indiana we'll have people around that are going to be willing to help us out with either babysitting or other things. I already know my mom wants to babysit every chance she can get and I know between Isaac's friends and mine we will have all the help and support we need to help get ourselves back on our feet. To this day I still wish we hadn't have left but if we didn't we wouldn't be bringing a new life into this world and wouldn't have had the chance to look reality dead in the eye and face it on our own. I guess coming out here has been a major learning experience for both of us. If I can get over all of this stress (not just for myself but for my baby too) and look at the bright side I can get through these last few grulling months and be back home where I belong.